I know I'm not alone when I say that it felt like there was a bit (a bit? Understatement?) of pressure to have Parker's first birthday go just so. This is obviously all for the Moms. The babies won't remember a darn thing. Though, as a twelve-year old, if he asks: "Mom. What'd we do for my first birthday? You blew my socks off, didn't you? Come on, tell me how cool it was." Well, I'll want to have something to say. I can't say I blew Parker's socks off, but it was a sweet day. First, he gave ME a present by sleeping in until 7:15. (That's a whole hour later than normal.) Then, I made him a smoothie after discovering that he loves them a few weeks prior. Blueberry, banana, coconut milk, and spinach. He licks his lips over and over. It's really pretty sweet. Smoothie ended, we played both inside and out, nap time. Wake up. Cauliflower. Another one of his favorites. I sautee it in butter so, duh, he loves it. Then we took him to his favorite little pool where he crawls around in a few inches of water. He splashed and had a ball. We went home, he dug into hummus, made a mess, and opened his presents. And all the while my heart was swelling for my one-year old. I wanted him to enjoy his day, I wanted to enjoy his day. I fought with the temptation to make everything monumental. To make everything more emotional than it needed to be. I would say I succeeded over all. I didn't cry when I nursed him and put him down to bed even though I told myself that this night was different than all the other nights when I do the same thing. Cause this night, I was putting down my one year old.
After he went to bed, you can bet that I watched a few baby-Parker videos and wondered when did he change? Like, when did he no longer look like a two-month old? Slow progression. I can't pinpoint it. Nevertheless, he's not such a baby anymore. His body is stronger, his personality is bigger. Clothes that don't fit him are piling up and he's learning nose and bellybutton. When'd he get so big? Overnight, it seems.
I'm working on a "Parker's first year" video and, you can be sure, the tears will flow then. And we're celebrating this Saturday with friends and some family (crossing our fingers that the rain stays away!).