something about the new year coming makes me think of what i've accomplished, what i've yet to accomplish, what i must accomplish... you get the picture. i certainly am not exactly where i pictured myself at 27 years old but most days, i quite like my life. i'm not sure what i'd be doing had i not met and married steve and became an insta-mom. would i be working a silly, has-nothing-to-do-with-my-major office job? would i be back in school getting my masters? would i be living near home or traveling? who knows. obviously some of my dreams had to be put a bit on the back burner when my life became what it is. that's ok. but, what are those dreams now? to be sure, they've changed in the last five years anyway. i know myself better now. what i'm capable of, what i really enjoy, what i am good at. so, with those things in mind, here are some things i hope for in 2012 (and, the following years):
i really want to get more skilled at graphic design. i have told steve recently, "i should have majored in this." it is so much fun (the very little i do) and i want to do more and more. maybe an intensive saturday class in photoshop?
i want to get more skilled behind the camera. maybe, even, start taking pictures outside of my family (gasp!)! whether for pay or not, it'd make me feel more legit and i think i'd love it. it seems that it'd be a great job for a mom... make your own hours and work as much or as little as you want. speaking of, i'm saving up for a lens and these two are top of my list right now. which do ya'll prefer (and why?)? 24-70 or 24-105?
i want to take that trip with the family.
i want to live elsewhere for a time. whether steve takes a short-term teaching job at another school, or does research elsewhere for a sabbatical project... i really want to truly take up residence in a place other than here for a time. i like it here though and i want to come back. but six months or so in europe? vancouver? southern california? i will take it.
i want to relax more as a mom. i want to take my kids' interests more seriously and not assume it is a fleeting-will-be-gone-tomorrow whim of theirs. i want to be on the computer less during their waking hours (i hate it when they're so tv-computer minded and i realize i'm not setting the best example). i want to read to them more.
i've struggled with prayer and what it means and whether there's any point... but i want to do it nevertheless. when my family gets in a car day after day, there's nothing i can do to keep them safe from some crazy person on the road, i say a little prayer. it seems a little trite and whether it's just lip service or not, it's all i can do and so i do it. and i suppose, if there ends up being a purpose to it, i'll be glad to have done it. thus... prayer's sticking around, i think.
what are yours?