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Sunday, December 16, 2012


the world post-friday looks awfully grim.  doing a blog post, putting makeup on, even celebrating christmas... well, it all seems futile.  i'm trying to find hope, peace, and prayer.  lord, i'm trying.  but knowing that moms and dads are thinking about funerals instead of christmas mornings, knowing that these sweet little kids had their hair brushed and their moms help them put their shoes on for school that morning... just before violence visited them... if i think too hard about it, i can hardly breathe.  but my pain?  god, my pain is nothing compared to theirs.  i don't know how, as a parent, you look ahead to the next many years of life, having lost a child.  your child.  it's too much to bear.  i write this through tears that have been falling since friday.  what must they be going through?  and for what?  the most senseless of acts.  sometimes this world is just too much to take.  moms and dads of newtown, you are constantly on my mind, in my heart, and in the prayers of "lord, help us" that are rising up.  

i know i'm not the only one who is feeling this tragedy.  i read this quote the other day and perhaps you'd like to read it too:

you must not lose faith in humanity.  humanity is like an ocean; if a few drops of the ocean are dirty, the ocean does not become dirty.  -gandhi

18 comments:

  1. I have to believe that in this world there is more good than evil, more right than wrong, and more love than hate. Even with a heavy heart and an ache in the pit of my stomach, that is the faith to which I'm clinging.

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  2. I lost my baby son this August, and have just been in a haze since Friday. Praying hard for all of those parents and siblings.

    www.anna-bird.com

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  3. Bridget, Thanks for sharing that quote. I don't have children of my own yet (except my puppy) but my husband and I have been struggling with the concept of even bringing children into a world this dirty...your quote reminds me to remember that it's not all dirty, that there are still lovely things out there, life is too short to dwell on the non-pretty things.

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  4. Every time I try and put myself in those parents shoes, it takes my breath away. I cannot even fathom going through what they are experiencing right now. I had to turn the news off, it would bring tears to my eyes every time I tried to watch. Horrible. My thoughts and prayers seem to constantly be with them. I can't remember feeling like this since 9/11.

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  5. thank you so much for the quote. I instantly wrote it on the blackwall in my studio. it helped!

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  6. It is too much to wrap my mind around as well. But I think thoughts and prayers are always the best things to do when faced with such a tragedy. I just try to remember to love love and love some more because things can change so quickly.

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  7. @anna louisa, oh friend i am so sorry you had to go through that. i don't even have the words. i'm sure this tragedy is hitting you in a unique way because of your own loss.

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  8. speechless as well. thank you for your words. they always resonate deep within.

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  9. it hurts. it all just hurts. i want to take away the pain those moms and dads, those brothers, sisters and friends are all feeling. i feel like i can't do enough, you know?

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  10. and to Anna Louisa, I am very sorry to hear about your loss.

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  11. I'm not sure that I've commented before...
    but your post...These words. Exactly the way I've been feeling. And I just felt like today was the day to stop being a silent reader.

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  12. that quote is amazing...

    yeah. on friday, i got wind of what happened and immediately built an imaginary wall around myself.
    i couldn't even take in the information, i tried to go about my day as normal because i couldn't even feel the feelings - it was just too much to bear.

    needless to say that didn't last long... and i'm still speechless and stunned... and feel everything you so eloquently wrote...

    it makes me want to be a better human, you know? to make sure i never part ways with anyone in a way that wouldn't be suitable to be my last...

    xx


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  13. Very beautiful quote - thank you very much for sharing that with us.

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  14. thank you for those words. much needed.

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  15. well written and the Ghandi Quote is something to remember.
    I, too am raw. I can barely breathe when I think about it :(

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